
Have you ever wondered what Mary felt? We can't know. But we can imagine . . . .
It began on a day like every other day. Out of nowhere there stood before me a radiant being who said, "Greetings, you who are highly favored! The Lord is with you."
I knew somehow it was an angel. But why would an angel come to me? And why would I be "highly favored?" I was young and poor and female who lived in Nazareth, the least of all the villages in Israel.
Then I heard, "Mary, you have found favor with God. You will be with child and give birth to a son, and you are to give him the name Jesus. He will be great and will be called the Son of the Most High ."
I could not believe my ears, so I dared to ask, "How will this be, since I am a virgin?"
"The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you. So the holy one to be born will be called the Son of God . . . For nothing is impossible with God."
I could make no sense of this, yet I felt my heart warm within me. I trusted God, didn't I? So I said, "I am the Lord's servant. May it be to me as you have said."
Suddenly I was alone again, my heart brimming over with wonder and joy.
Then I thought of Joseph. Joseph! My precious Joseph, my betrothed. Already we were considered married, but as was the custom, we were waiting out our year of betrothal before we came together as husband and wife. What would Joseph say when he found out? He would know the child was not his. What would he do?
At that moment I felt an icy chill of fear. He could accuse me in front of the elders and have me flogged in the public square. I would live out the rest of my life in disgrace, alone. I and this child would live in disgrace.
I sat on that hard bench for a long time, praying, crying, trying to take it in. I swung from joy to sadness and back to joy, over and over again. Finally I resolved I would trust the Lord, no matter what.
Joseph was stunned to find out I was pregnant, as any man would be. Finally he said he cared for me too much to have me flogged and disgraced. That dear, righteous man would just divorce me quietly.
Before he could speak to the authorities and make it official an angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream. "Joseph son of David, do not be afraid to take Mary home as your wife, because what is conceived in her is from the Holy Spirit. She will give birth to a son, and you are to give him the name Jesus, because he will save his people from their sins."
Joseph believed! Neither of us could understand the hows and the whys, but that didn't matter. God had decided Joseph and I were to be part of his miracle in sending his son to earth. Joseph took me home, but we agreed, of course, we would not come together as husband and wife until after God's Son was born.
Just as I feared, the folk in the village whispered about the child I was carrying. The men called Joseph a fool. But he paid them no mind. He was my protector and my support.
Close to the end of my pregnancy Emperor Caesar Augustus decreed a census should be taken of the entire Roman world. Joseph and I both belonged to the line of David. So we had to go from Nazareth in Galilee to Judea, to Bethlehem, the city of David, Israel's greatest king. It didn't matter that I was in my ninth month and Bethlehem was about seventy miles away. We had no choice. Caesar ruled his Empire with an iron fist.
Can you imagine the discomfort of that journey? Sometimes I rode side-saddle on the donkey and sometimes I walked. Either way, I felt every jolt, every rock, every rut in the road.
Toward the end I neared the end of my strength. As I walked I held my aching belly. By the time we drew near Bethlehem I was feeling ill. Then I felt a sharp pain down low in my belly. I knew my time to give birth was coming soon. Yet we had no place to stay.
Joseph searched the town, pounding on doors, frantically inquiring of innkeepers. There were no rooms to be had, not anywhere. At last one kind man took pity on us and told us we could stay in his stable. At least we would be in out of the cold night air and we could have a bit of privacy. He lent us a small oil lamp. We watched its light dance and flicker on the rough walls and listened to the soft sounds of the animals. And we waited.
Joseph did what he could. He spread out a garment for me and helped me lie down on it. What a relief! My swollen feet throbbed and my whole body ached.
We had only the warmth--and the smell--of the animals. Only our love for each other.
Only the waiting for God's Son to be born.
Then I felt the labor pangs begin in earnest, quickly growing stronger. I know not how long I labored, trying not to scream. Joseph stayed by my side, his eyes filling with tears as he stroked my forehead and whispered my name, over and over. I hear him still: Mary. Mary . . . .
Then I felt such an urge to push I could not resist. With one final push and a long sigh my labor was over.
The Savior, the long-awaited Messiah, was born!
I could not hold back tears of joy. I looked into my baby's face and wondered what the future might hold for this little one. Then I wrapped him in some soft cloths I had brought with me. After awhile I laid the Child on top of the fresh hay Joseph had spread in the cleanest place in that cattle barn: the manger.
We could not have imagined what would come next. A group of men who looked to be shepherds burst into the stable. They went straight to the manger and gazed down at Jesus. Then they bowed down in worship. I saw a glow on their faces . . . as if they already knew who he was.
After awhile they told us what brought them to the manger. They were out on the hills around Bethlehem as usual, guarding their sheep against thieves and animal attack. Suddenly everything around them shone bright. They never saw anything like it. Then an angel appeared and said, "I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger."
Before they could speak a word the sky filled with a great company of angels, all of them singing and praising God and saying, "Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace to men."
Then just as suddenly the angels were gone. The shepherds could hardly contain themselves. They said to one another, "Let us go to Bethlehem and see this wonderful thing!"
So they abandoned their sheep and ran as fast as they could to find the Savior, Christ the Lord, there in that lowly manger.
Why were any of us surprised? Centuries before Jesus was born there lived a prophet of God named Isaiah. He foretold that a virgin would be with child and give birth to a son who would be called Immanuel. Immanuel means, "God with us."
I never stopped thanking God for choosing me to be part of that glorious night.
But I never got used to the fact that when God stepped into our world almost no one paid attention.
It's still true, dear friends. Jesus is God with us. Jesus came to make us right with God. All who believe in him as Lord and Savior are forgiven for every sin and will never die. When we breathe our last breath here on earth, we'll draw our next breath in Heaven, where we'll be face-to-face with Jesus. With God.
You can find the Christmas Gospel (Good News) in the Bible. The best-known account of Christ's birth is in Luke 2: 1-20. Matthew 1:18 to 2:12 tells of the angel's visit to Joseph , and also the visit of the Magi, the wise men. Isaiah's prophecy is in the Old Testament book of Isaiah, chapter seven, verse fourteen. Read John, chapters 14 through 17 if you want to know Christ's heart of love. (The account of his death on the cross and resurrection follow.) To learn more about salvation from sin and God's forgiveness and grace in Christ, read Romans, chapter eight.
As you and I rush around getting ready for Christmas, let's hang onto the wonder and JOY!
Hugs,
Lenore
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